Thursday, December 25, 2008
10 embarrassing moments in tech
read more | digg story
Monday, December 22, 2008
The English Paper That got me an A+ (unedited)
Bova, Tenaya
English 99 8 am
Boling
12/11/08
To My Darling David,
I still have a clear picture of our first real date. You know what I mean my real, the chat rooms didn't count. I still see my self standing in front of my bathroom mirror shaking so bad I couldn't even put my make up on right. Dating was never an easy thing for me and going out to dinner with some guy I meet online was just crazy talk, but I did my best. It took me almost two hours to find something to wear that night not to mention how many different times I did and redid my hair. I was just a walking nightmare and not the cool you get to wake up when it is over nightmare, more like the Freddie is going to kill you in your sleep kind. But I did press on and I managed to only be ten minutes late.
You were not any better that night. You could hear you hand shaking as you rang the bell on my front door. I can still see the light reflecting off your forehead as we walked back to your car. I really did think as you closed the door to your car you were going to drop it on my leg.
The silence in the car was worse then death. It was almost like we had so much to say but really nothing at all. If you listened hard enough you could hear both of out hearts beating like a drum line at a college football game. Ever once in awhile I would catch you trying to look at me from the corner of your eyes, but you would not look long enough for me to look back into yours. The traffic was so bad that night all I can remember thinking was get the hell out of our way so I can get to the restaurant, once we get there it will be all better. Boy was I ever right.
We pulled into the parking lot and you barely let me get out of the car before closing the door on me. We walked inside and every sight every smell was like new to me. I had eaten here a million times before and never did a place seem so foreign to me. Almost every table was full so we had to wait a bit and all I could do was look around the room for anything familiar and all I could see was you.
As we were seated you began to speak, surprisingly enough in complete sentences. The restaurant was so very crowed I could barely hear you speak but I did all that I could to get by. After a few moments the room began to fade away from around me and all I could see was you. Your voice became louder then any of the others around me and it was a good thing, because all I wanted to hear was you telling me all about everything the world had in it.
The conversation was different then any other we had shared before. There was something about you being right in front of me that made anything you said way more personal. We had still had almost all of our food on our plates after an hour sitting at that table. There was nothing anyone could have done to stop us, until the waitress can and went a million times and we finally got the hint.
You finally got the door thing right as we left the restaurant. I was so proud of you in that moment. We spent so much time driving that night. Just getting lost in conversation and not really wanting to stop. We finally parked the car and really began to listen to each other.
As we faced each other in the car the silence began again. I will never forget you totally bombing the attempt of our first kiss. The sound of both our laughter filled the car before I stopped it with my lips against yours. There was nothing around us but the stars and the view of town in front of us not that it mattered, all I wanted was that kiss to go on forever.
We had three years of amazing first after that David. Each one of the better then the one before it for different reasons, whether they went the way we planned or not they were still each perfectly ours. For the time that we were together all that matter was each and every second we were together and in the end I took every last one of those for granted. You were it my one and only true love and I realized it one moment too late.
As you read the rest of this letter I need you to understand that this is not a plea for you back, this is a confession of all my faults to you and an apology for all that I have done to hurt you. I can not take the steps forward until I know that I have done all that I can to understand the past. I love you David and always will and I know now that we had a chance to be great and I took that chance from us both. There were some things I could never say then with the fear that I may lose you but now since all is said and done I can give you those things and hope you understand why I am doing this now.
I was always so selfish and cruel to you. I did all that I could to make you feel guilty for ever leaving my side and I am sorry for that. No matter who or what kept you from me I hated it. Whether I was work, family, or friends you were only to be mine and no one else to have you and that was wrong. I couldn't stand the idea of losing you and it was exactly what pulled us apart.
You always had this strength about you that you never believed that you had and I was jealous I didn't have. You could get yourself though just about anything that life could throw at you. If it was me, or work or even bad traffic on the freeway you just walked right through it like it was nothing. I hated you for that. You always kept your grace about you and there was no way I could keep up with that. I just spent so much time wishing I had half the strength you did but what I should have see was that you were my strength.
I am not as confident as you think I am. The way I see it is if I am the loudest person in the room people will remember me as that and will never see who I really am. I am afraid of life and all that comes with it and with you it was you love that I feared the most. How or why could anyone love me like you did? There was never anything that I did in my life to really deserve a love like yours, so how did I get it? There were moments where I would watch you go though your daily routine and ask myself these questions over and over again until I drove myself so crazy I would pick a fight just because I needed to be mad at something. You were just too good, too sweet and too perfect to really be mine. Now all I want is for you to see that I am becoming that confident person you need me to be.
There is no memories in my head more clear then ours David, and they live and replay every where I go. From that first night to our very last one together and I know that one day I will move on like you have, but until then you will always be my one true love.
Forever Yours,
Rene
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Legend of Zelda "We are the Champions" Music Video Tribute
read more | digg story
Monday, November 3, 2008
35 Beautiful Examples of High-Speed Photography (PICS)
read more | digg story
10 SciFi Alternatives To Obama/McCain 08
read more | digg story
31 Absolutely Amazing Video Game Costumes [PICS]
read more | digg story
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
The 40 Greatest Uses Of The Super Mario Theme
read more | digg story
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Top 10 Best Controllers of All Time
read more | digg story
Sarah Palin Disney Trailer
read more | digg story
Monday, September 29, 2008
Monday, September 8, 2008
I Google Myself
read more | digg story
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Soderbergh In The Park To Stage Production 'Ocean's Twelve'
read more | digg story
King penguin receives Norwegian knighthood
read more | digg story
Friday, August 15, 2008
Monday, August 11, 2008
Monday, August 4, 2008
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
71-year-old chases down mugger
read more | digg story
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Man drowns during river baptism (why i dont go to curch)
read more | digg story
MTV readies 'Rocky Horror' redux
read more | digg story
Man deposits millions, one tattered bill at a time
read more | digg story
Monday, July 28, 2008
Babies Think Like Adults
read more | digg story
This Tree Shrew is Sober Despite Drinking Alcohol All Day
read more | digg story
Sunday, July 27, 2008
5 Painful Facts You Need to Know
read more | digg story
How High Fructose Corn Syrup Makes You Gain Weight
read more | digg story
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Terminator 4 Sneak & Cell Phones Cause Cancer?!
read more | digg story
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Monday, July 14, 2008
Salmonella fears take zing out of pepper biz
read more | digg story
UK Teachers Win Right to Frisk Pupils for Drink, Drugs, Cigs
read more | digg story
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Woman kills husband with folding couch
read more | digg story
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Top Video Games of 2008 So Far
read more | digg story
Apple just gave out my Apple ID password because someone ask
read more | digg story
10 TV Shows That Were Ripped Off By Other Shows
read more | digg story
Poem by anonymous
Its probably a lie,
If I tell you that we're friends,
you a dime a dozen
If I give you a complement,
Dont listen,
If i tell you I am grateful,
I cant tell you I mean it,
But,
If i give you my heart,
I am yours forever,
If i tell you my secrets,
Your more then a friend,
If i say that you beautiful,
It comes from my soul,
If i tell you a promise,
I will go to the death to keep it
What I say and what I feel,
You may never understand,
And for that I will warn you,
I am impossible to keep,
Harder to contain,
Have no love for one over another,
My words will never rhyme,
And my voice will never sing
If you want my heart,
Try all you want,
but in the end you see,
you will only get hurt.
Monday, July 7, 2008
Man Disappointed With the Price on His Life
read more | digg story
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Italians are fun
An angry Italian was arrested for taking pot shots at his neighbour's undies with a rifle.
Massimo Lazzaretti, 69, allegedly let fly with a legally owned hunting rifle he had at his home in Carnago after the 56-year-old woman had hung out her washing.
A police spokesman said: "The two neighbours had fallen out some time ago and he said he thought by leaving bullet holes in her underwear he would frighten her enough to stay away from him.
"He succeeded in frightening her but only to the extent that she called us immediately."
Lazzaretti has been charged with endangering public safety.
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Hostage released for pizza
An Australian prison guard held hostage for two days was released after a ransom demand for pizzas was met.
Up to 20 inmates at the Risdon Prison in Hobart, Tasmania, seized the guard in a protest over conditions in the maximum security jail.
Initially they made 24 demands to authorities, but eventually gave up their hostage after agreeing to 15 pizzas, Coke and garlic bread instead.
"At midnight, the final sticking point with the inmates was that they were requiring pizzas to be delivered. Our staff member was negotiated out with the delivery of 15 pizzas," Graeme Barber, Tasmania's director of prisons, told The Advocate newspaper.
The guard is recovering from his ordeal at home.